Twenty-seventeen has been a year of discovery. I worked toward something I’ve dreamt of, I cut out people who made me felt less like myself, I quit relationships and friendships I were unhappy to be in, I fell and I stood back up again. I know it's too early to say I've figured it out but I think I’ve figured some of it out. I came to love myself and prioritize myself over every other superficial things and people, I came to accept what I can’t change and be the change in what I can change. I’ve never been happier and more satisfied with life to be honest. I still have a long way to go to get to where I want to be but I’ve learned to be happy with right now while also looking forward to the unknown future. It’s a very difficult thing to balance but I’m grateful. And I think that’s the most important thing- to be happy is to be grateful of where you are and what you’ve come to own no matter how small or big it is. After all, everything in life described by an adjective is bound to relativity.
I've been trying to figure out on how to utilize this space as I have never been someone who'd speak openly about my daily ongoings nor do I think I can do it better than everybody else who's better at articulating life in words than I do. The internet is so saturated and in such public time of humanity with only so little left unexposed I'd like to keep some of it to myself but I'll definitely drop by sometime.
Meanwhile, this track has been on repeat for awhile.
In the past couple of months, there have been a lot of life transitions- most of it took me by surprise. But the experience has given me a new outtake on life in which I have learned to embrace that not everything in life has to be perfect simply because if perfection is what we seek for in life, it will make us too vulnerable to failures. Sometimes, you have to let life takes its course.
"..탑이 너무 빽빽하거나 오밀조밀하면 비바람을 견디지 못하고 폭삭 내려앉아. 어딜 탑만 그렇겠나. 뭐든 틈이 있어야 튼튼한 법이지..."
- 이기주, 언어의 온도
I'm currently writing this from my parents' house in Malaysia after what felt like a trip that was never going to end in Japan. While it was not my first time visiting nippon, it was my first time exploring other parts of Japan aside from Tokyo. About two years after my last trip, going back only enhanced on what was great about Japan. Sunlight, clean streets, good food, great clothes and blue skies.
Tokyo has definitely won my heart as one of the best cities I've ever visited especially through its shopping options in Shinjuku which made me broke my own vacation budget (Sorry, mom). Nonetheless, other cities were equally enjoyable. After exploring Tokyo, we went to the Hida Province located in the Gifu Prefecture where I took one of the most breathtaking views ever in my life and also breathed in the freshest air I've had in awhile as we stayed at one of the traditional houses at Ogimachi Village- named as one of UNESCO's World Cultural Heritage. We then went to Nagoya where I discovered a heaven on earth- La Chic. Every floor of the mall offers an amazing range of clothes from both international and local designers and this is also where I got my first Acne Studio jeans.
We went to Kyoto and Osaka afterward where I found myself beat after more than a week of traveling. At this point, I realized that the only excitement you actually get from traveling is being able to escape from the routine that you're accustomed with. When it gets too long, this is when you begin to miss the comfort of your own bed. After two weeks, I came back to Seoul with an extra luggage and definitely with a heart fuller than before. I can't wait to share where I'm heading next but first, back to the usuals.
Till we meet again, Japan. Thank you for the memories.